Sunday, May 13, 2007
it is Mother's Day. Now that I am a mom of four I realize the irony in the day. I love my kids, and they do try and make the day special and they make great gifts. My husband asks me what I need for the day and is really an amazing man who loves me so much more than I deserve. Yet- the day never really ends up being all that great. It is my fault. I am the kind of person who needs to get things done. If I truly took the day off and let them pamper me, it would really just mean more work for me later. I think I need to redefine the day for myself so it is more fulfilling or something. The people who love me most want it to be special, and try so hard, and yet there is always so much to do, I can't just enjoy it. My house is a wreck- mainly because I spent a lot of time outside of it. On a day like today what I really want is some uninterrupted time to get things done. I want my kids to not bicker for the day. I want the gardens to be weed-free. I want the basement to look like a living space. I want all of the junk out of the house so it is no longer cluttered. I want a miracle. What I need to remember is that I have been given 5 miracles that I see each and every day. I have been given the gift of a husband who supports me in all that I do. I have been given 4 beautiful daughters, who at their core are really good human beings. I have been blessed beyond measure, and I don't need a special day to remind of that. Why God has chosen to be so gracious to me, I will never know. I certainly don't deserve it, and I so often take it for granted. I need to take this day and turn it around- I need to show them why I am so thankful to be a mom. I need to let them know that they bring me great joy. I need to let them know they are the reason I get up each morning thanking God for another day. It really isn't about me at all. It is about the ones who gave the reason to celebrate in the first place. Now that is a better way to think about the day.